Wednesday, 27 January 2010

I donno ...

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Untuk awak, Balak. I know how much you want one so here you go(:
*Perempuan tu hott gila an.


Korang penah rasa tak this one feeling yang tak boleh nk describe? Okay, soalan bodoh. Aku dr td tny dri sndri apa aku rasa tp tk boleh. Terharu? Tak. Sedih? Takde motif. Gembira? Jauh sekali. Teruja? Celah mane. Nak nangis? Tak perlu.

Anyways, its a kind of feeling bila ada orang yg sanggup buat apa sahaja untuk kau tapi dia tak perlu pn bersusah payah buat sbb small the pieces je. Yeah, patut terharu kan. Then what if effort susah payah tu turns out to be useless? Orang tu of course rse penat, kesal, sedih dan pelbagai. So kita rase ape? Marah? Bukan salah dia, dia dah usaha kan. Pastu orang tu nk perbaiki balik kesalahan dia dgn nk susah payah balik. Kita rase terharu balik?

Kenapa nk terharu? Bagi aku, dlm kes ni, kita patut ade belas kasihan. Tapi manusia susah nk tunjuk belas kasihan.

Mana belas kasihan kau Tra?

Frankly, aku tatau ape aku rase towards ayah aku pny action. Aku mmg takde perasaan.

Orang boleh kata aku perhambakan ayah tapi tah la, aku tak bermaksudkan camtu pn, tak penah terlintas pn. Kecik2 dulu aku kata bila besar nnt aku nak jaga mak ayah. Sekarang aku kata Naim yg kne jage sbb mmg anak lelaki yg kena jage kan. Bukan hipokrit, mungkin sekarang aku buat lawak je, tapi aku mmg nak jge dorang obviously.

Kalau tak dpt, meronta-ronta, teghoyak, hentak kaki, merajuk, menangis mcm dunia nk kiamat. Kalau dapat, tk reti nak appreciate, tapi aku ada cakap terima kasih just tgk riak wajah tua ayah aku tu, rasa sebak di dada. Lagi 3 tahun, dah setengah abad dia hidup so agak tua la tu.

Bukan sekali ni, tapi banyak kali dah, bukan aku sorang je, tapi dengan semua orang keliling dia.

Back to the point, aku tatau ape aku rase. And aku baru je delete puluh-puluh baris ayat yg aku dh tulis sebab blog ni umum and bukan aku je yg bace, hee, pape lah. Nasib baik aku jenis tak kecoh nak lepas semua, bukan hipokrit, menyendiri. Besides, it's not your burden to bare. Gosh, rindu pulak nnt takde Keira Knightley dalam Pirates of the Carribean. Takde dah la girl power.

Anywaya, yes this post is pointless. Nak lift the cloud a lil bit je even though ada udang sebalik batu lagi.

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People are going to disappoint you.
I get that, I kind of expect that.
But, what if you wake up one day and realize you're the disappointment?

3 comments:

  1. yeah. mmg dying pun :P

    "People are going to disappoint you.
    I get that, I kind of expect that.
    But, what if you wake up one day and realize you're the disappointment? "

    i'll try to be a better person and move on :)

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  2. Like you can. Konon nk move on tp bnde tu still ade lam paleotak an. Sedih baii kita yg the disappointment.

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  3. moving on means we know that we're at fault and try to be a better person, not forgetting about the fact that we ARE the disappointment. memang la sedih. that's the part and parcels of life. live with it ;)

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